So I don't even know where to begin I'm only 25 and have been off and on with this girl for over 6 years but I don't think I've had a love more intense for anyone in my life, we've finally decided to try and become stable together and give it a real shot so I moved in probably about 6 months together it Hasn't been a walk in the park for either of us but we have finally gotten to a point to where we are doing really good consistently and I'm happy with the job I have in this new town

Here's the thing I don't what it is about her but I just can't find myself being able to fully trust her she has a shit ton of "toys" and I know that seems weird and dumb to start out with but hear me out, I've found a bunch of different kind of video chatting cameras throughout our room and when I asked her about them she just says she got them off of a friend and they never have been used but I see them move around almost every day and I've seen on her phone multiple different video chatting apps on her phone and when asked about that she says she accidentally downloaded them in place of another app she was trying to download and I'm not stupid like I know it's hard to "accidentally" download an app and why would you keep it if you did, specifically she this one toy that's literally like a machine that does the work for her and it's just like I don't see a point in having something that grand for yourself when your in a relationship.

Basically what I'm getting at is I think she masterbates with people via video chat but I have no proof I feel like she's got a lie for anything I ever question her about and if I don't believe her she makes me feel like shit for it

Also she has this friend who's like 40 plus years old that before I moved in she said she only kept around specifically for having help with her kid he was here all the time before I moved in and when we started talking again and I was staying here again he came too the house and tweaked out said "what's up are all fucking now cause we are" and she swears up and down they've never had sex and he's below her standard but come about a month ago I talked to him alone and he said again that they had sex and also he thinks it's fucked up for her too be lieing to me about it AND he still freaking comes her from time to time even when I'm NOT here and at work to help her and when I tell her that makes me uncomfortable she also makes me feel like shit for it like I love her with every fiber of my body and if I was to actually leave I'd be hurt for a long time considering not just her but her kid I've gotten attached too but I can't find any actual proof of anything so idk if I'm just a crazy boyfriend or if I should actually be alarmed because I want her and only her but I don't want to be played like I'm an idiot What should I do....

Side note: she says she absolutely despises see and that the only time she's sexual is with her partner in a relationship to the point she hates anime and everything to do with it because of all the sexual innuendos but she's also a frequent mastetbater and watches porn