Wasn’t sure where to ask this, but wanted to know if anyone else’s dislikes their older brothers? And if I’m the problem.

My brother recently got into a relationship with a girl he met at a party. And since then he’s been all happy, but seeing him this way brings up past memories. Even before that I had already in my mind stopped caring about him and kind of see him as just some guy. I don’t hate him I just don’t like him.

It feels like we’re water and fire. Too different.

I think this all started when I told him a few years ago that I wanted to retire alone, to live out my life financially secure. He told me straight to my face “you’re going to hell.” Just because I wanted to be my own person. I think that was the last straw.

Before that he’d always try to make me feel less masculine by rubbing my chin even knowing I hated it. Yelling, and getting easily mad. He’s even hit me in the past. I’m not a violent person and he knows this but would still hit me. On others occasions he’d even scoff at me for telling our family that I’ve been working out. Calling me a liar.

He’s just such a dick sometimes.

I feel like I have to walk on egg shells whenever I’m near him. Just to not make him mad. I’m actually happy that he leaves the house with his girl cuz then I don’t have to deal with him.

Seeing how happy and more calm he’s been now it makes me feel like he’s faking it, so I don’t know what to think. We’re not close, friendly but not close. And I feel like he feels the same way.

So, I want to know aitah for remembering the past? Or should I let bygones be bygones?