Hi! It’s my first time here and English is not my first language so please be understanding. This post might be chaotic but I really need to vent and I have no one to talk about this. I will appreciate any advice or criticism and I will be happy to answer any questions to clarify the situation. Sorry because this probably is gonna be long but I want to give you the full perspective. I met my best friend (21F) almost 10 years ago when we were both 11 and we are inseparable ever since. She’s extremely beautiful (she literally could be a model), educated and hard working person. We never really argue even when we have different opinions and we always got along REALLY well. However she was always more outgoing and I was more on the introverted side. We come from small town (yk the one where everyone knows everything about everyone, very toxic environment) but recently I started uni, so I moved to bigger city. She was already studying here, but she has studies on weekends and works on weekdays in our hometown and I live here full time. I must add that she has a very toxic mother (I won’t get into that, my best friends grandfather was an alcoholic so you get the idea) and an absent also alcoholic father. I always helped her in a lot of hard situations and she did the same for me. Last year she got out of 5 year long relationship- they had different goals in life and feelings really burned out especially on her side. I was there for her all the time and I was happy to finally see her going back to her old happy self because she was really depressed for last 6 months of the relationship. She was always beautiful but she recently got back to the gym and became very lean and I’m really happy for her because I know she struggled with body image and she’s finally feeling herself. The problem starts here and before I get into that I want to emphasize that I’m not insecure or envy her or something- I like myself and the way I look, I think that I’m also a good looking person, I like my body, I like my life and I did therapy for like 3 years because I struggle with anxiety (which is going to be important later). I know that despite her glow up she’s having a hard time but I don’t know how to help her. Recently her only topics are who looked at her at the gym, what is she eating and how little, who followed her on insta etc. She always got a lot of male attention so it’s not a new thing for her as I said she was always very pretty. She’s also pushing her obsessed with healthy food habits on me even that I’m not interested in diet and gym that much (and I’m skinny so I don’t need to change a lifestyle or something, I try to work out but my studies take me a lot of my time so it’s not really that much a priority for me). We like to party sometimes and it was always so fun with her- we danced and met a new people, we were never hooking up with randoms or something like that but she recently became SO male centered and hungry for validation that I really have to hold back so I don’t comment on it (and again I’m not insecure, I also get the attention but it not a big deal for me, imo attention that u get on the street or especially in the club is mostly driven by lust and I’m looking for a real connection but obviously I’m different places). I tried to tell her gently that she’s acting desperate and she called me stiff and prude and told me to relax so I stopped commenting but I’m not gonna lie I have to really hold myself back when she kisses 3 randoms at one night every party because it cringes me (I know it could be worse, she’s not hooking up with them, I want her to have fun but the number of guys and fact that she has NO standards for the guys is the part that is bothering me). Another problem is her drinking- I don’t mind getting a little tipsy but she gets absolutely shitfaced and has really bad panic attacks and I’m having a hard time comforting her because nothing is working because she’s so drunk she doesn’t think logically. As I said I also struggle with anxiety so it’s hard to help her when I almost have a panic attack myself (during hers she’s growing things and screaming that she’s going to kill herself so I’m not trying to make this about me I’m just really scared). I told her to seek therapy and she agreed with me that she has a problem but she never got any help, got drunk again, had a panic attack again (3 times). Also everytime I see her, she goes in front of the mirror and proceeds to tell me that she looks fat and has so much water retained in her body- and all this time she has a visible six pack and is very slim. I’ve seen her last weekend and I feel drained to this day even tho she’s not doing anything wrong to me. I know that she’s also struggling with her job- she works physically so I offered her to move in with me but the more I think about this the more I think that being with her all the time when she’s acting like this would make me hate her and it would destroy our friendship but in the other hand I know that she has no money to move out and probably living with me is the only way for her to live our hometown because I own my apartment so I would charge her much less than a normal roommate. I really want to help her but I can’t stand her recently. Am I in the asshole here? How to navigate this situation? I will appreciate any advice, opinions and criticism.