I (32F) am 1 year and 3 months removed from my prior relationship. Most of my relationships have lasted over 1 year to 5 years. I only mention that because before this ex, I had fears that I would never truly love someone. I know that may sound stupid but I only ever felt comfortable. I tended to stay in relationships longer than I should have, thinking it was depression making me dislike my life only to realize I wasn't happy in my relationship. When my most recent ex ended our relationship it truly came as a surprise and broke me. I still have very strong feelings for my ex and experience moments of grief about our break up. I wish my ex well and love them to this day. We have no contact and even though that hurts, I believe it's for the best. I want to move on but I have concerns. I've told myself that I should refrain from dating again until I can let go of these feelings, however, I wonder if remaining in this state will only make it harder for me to move on. I worry that I'll fall into this belief, due to my prior fears, that I'll never love someone like I loved them. Basically, should I try to meet someone new even though I still have these strong feelings for my ex? Or should I give it more time? I know now what it feels like to have true feelings of love for another vs blaming depression for my discomfort or unhappiness but I do not want to waste someone's time, hurt someone, or ruin a possible great future with someone that loves me as much as I love them due to still recovering from my prior relationship. How long should I wait?

Note: I'm new to reddit, tried to post this in advice but it wouldn't let me... assuming due to the title? Trying not to be an asshole which is why I'm asking. Yes, I realize I was an asshole for allowing my prior relationships to go on for so long. Again, I assumed it was my depression, I hadn't known what it felt like to love a romantic partner like that until now. Maybe that should have been obvious but it wasn't for me. I believed that because I was comfortable, attracted to them, enjoyed time with them and trusted them, then I loved them. That being said, there was always SOMETHING missing. There's more to love. Thank you all.