I thought university eight months ago and I’ve come to the conclusion that I haven’t really made any friends because I just have a person I am. I have a tendency of focusing on solely work. i’m with this mentality it’s kind of left me with the friends that I have from class and these people the nice people, but I’ve kind of put myself in a situation where I said no going out all the time so when they do wanna go out, they don’t include me. I didn’t. I did this unintentionally because for me my mindset is I can’t go out without my work getting done so the unintentionally leaving me up but I have a best friend. I’ve been friends with for three years now and she knows me pretty well we’ve been going to uni together and we’re in the same class and I’ll friend group is including her as well so I know she’s got close to this other girl who is my friend and they started hanging out without me leaving me out, but that’s all unintentional because I was so so focused on my work and it got to the point where my friend told me that she would meet me up in school and we would hang out for a bit until she has her meeting and then she literally when I got to school she instead went off with her other friend without telling me so I travelled 40 minutes for her literally not even to be there and she didn’t even tell me and so stuff like that I’m hanging out whilst I’m on my own because that girl is my flatmate so I know when they hang out like they will be in the kitchen or they will be in there rooms. And I know this is not their fault for believing me out, but when I told my best friend that I want to be more included, I want to hang out more and I wanna do things with them more they still didn’t include me and it kinda makes me feel like they don’t want me around and this girl also sometimes gives me backhanded compliments and would try leave me out of certain things I’ve made the resolve to make new friends and put myself out there because thats what i believe that i deserve and i will put in the effort to make these new connections I just still feel lost and it has given me really bad FOMO i feel like i cant talk to anyone because she lives next door to me i hear them laugh and have fun and i feel so lonely and this sadness that i feel has taken over and i don’t know what to do I’m so alone. Ive been here 8 MONTHS and nothing to show for it. Im so lost i don’t know what to do. i cant even be mad because this is all my fault but i don’t know how to stop the sadness and the loneliness that i feel i literally have no friends