I 28f am thinking about cutting off my dad 62. We used to have an ok relationship when I was young. Him and my mum 60 broke up when I was 3. After my mum took my sister and I to our home town we seen my dad a whopping 5 weeks out of the year because he lived 4 hours away. This was life until I turned 12. My dad and grandparents (dad’s side) convinced me that I wanted to live with him. So they would make me stay up late reading articles about girls who had been s ab*ed (staring out because idk if it’s allowed here) and I was to repeat as if it had happened to me. I was kept up until 5am some nights being made to read this at 12years old. I didn’t even know what sx was yet. But unfortunately I was extremely easy manipulated and stupid at 12. They made me believe so much stuff that never happened. This went on for 9 months me being told by my grandparents if I didn’t say these things I’d never see any of my family again and that I’d severely let everyone down. I put my mum through a gruelling time and my sister also along with the rest of mums side. My dad said he can’t do this anymore whilst I was on a holiday with my mum. Myself and my family on my mums side were ecstatic about the news. They lost and it all came out. My dad knew it was all fake but kept it going. My sister and I were court ordered to still visit my dad until we were adults. To Now me 28 with multiple children biological and not. My dad is in a relationship with a horrible woman he wants me to call stepmom- not happening She has told my children the most horrible things about what’s happened to children in her area. I stated my children are too young to know or understand half of that multiple times. He won’t stop her “she doesn’t know she’s gone too far” Erm yes she does!!!!! When he stays my children and myself and husband feel like we are walking on eggshells then he overstays. I have tried talking to him about this but nothing ever changes. Just excuses for everything. My children then act up for a few weeks afterwards even their schools report about the change of behaviours. He also hasn’t accepted any of my non biological children just puts them down and doesn’t include them in anything. He never helps around my house help pay for food or anything else. When he calls he only wants help or to complain about stuff. But never really asks about the kids or what we’ve been up to. WIBTA if I cut off contact. I feel constantly drained and reminded of the terrible things I said happened that didn’t. It’s just a living memory every time I see him. There has been more than just this over the years but some is too hard to think about. I am sorry this has been quite vague but i don’t want to explain everything in detail. Believe me I know what I did was a terrible thing but when you’re vulnerable and you’re being pressured into stuff especially at a young age sometimes it’s hard not to do it. I’m just glad that my mum and family on her side forgave me for everything. I’ve never healed from it and constantly worry about saying or doing the wrong thing. Yes I’ve tried counselling 3 different times but they all told me it was all my fault 😩

What should I do?

Please don’t judge me I was a really easily manipulated child and was too worried to let anyone down or want to lose anyone who was dear to me.