I've attempted to write this a few times, and without making it into a novel, I'll simplify it down to this:

I left my ex of over 6 years for another guy. This other guy was a friend from HS. I didn't even think he liked me until another friend of mine said something about it. At the 6 year mark I was getting stressed from work and probably took my therapists advice too far. He said I needed to make some changes in my life so I had cut my hair and got a tattoo. And thought I can't wait around for ex to marry me. So I broke it off, moved back home and started dating friend from HS. Long story short, we got married a few years later, and have been for the last 10 years.

Now, for some reason, right after the new year, I have this strong feeling that I want to reach out to my ex to try to catch up. I even sat down with my husband and talked with him about it. He said he's okay if I feel like I really needed to. So I send a super simple message to my ex through social media. I'm not currently friends with him. So yes it just looks like a random message from a stranger or bot. But I haven't heard anything, I don't even see that he read it. So...

Would I be the AH if I kept trying to reach him to get some sort of answer? Even if it's just for him to tell me to go eff myself. I know I don't deserve an answer. But I don't really have anyone else to talk to about this, so reddit I come to you, AITA?