Okay so i feel like my parents unequally treat me compared to my brothers. Im 18(f) and i have four brothers age 19,17,16,and 13. I am technically the first born because my brothers 19 and 16 are adopted and we did not adopt them till ages of 11 and 8. But anyways my parents have always been super strict on me, like I wasn’t allowed to go to school sports games until i was in 8th grade but shocker they all was allowed in 6th and 7th. One super big thing that has always bothered me is social media. I wasn’t allowed to have it until 8th grade. I begged and pleaded since 6th and I would even cry to them because i was getting made fun of by my friends for not having it and they would exclude me from group chats. Even with me begging for them to download it and see what it was like for almost three years they didn’t budge until eighth grade only for a few months later for my brother that is a year younger than me to ask once and then to tell him yea and when i brought up that i was getting made fun of and begged when i was in 7th they said “well we downloaded it and now know what its like” as if i hadn’t asked that of them for years. My brothers would also be average annoying boys when i would ask too and tell me “why do you want to be like everyone else” “be a leader and not a follower” and just really make fun too and my parents never said anything about it well fast forward to my freshman year and my brothers 7th grade year he asked my dad for tiktok and i jokingly said “why do you want to be like everyone else” this set my dad off and he looks at my brother and tells him to download it, first time asking. It’s always been stuff like this when i was younger i would beg for and now my brothers get to do it. My junior year of high school I had no friends and my boyfriend went penn foster so i begged to as well because i had bad social anxiety and again no friends they told me no eventually after my boyfriend left i made friends but i still wanted to go online. That was going into the spring semester of my junior year. And again my brother a year younger gets to go penn foster at the same exact semester in high school that i begged for. I also asked and begged for them to sign to let me get a tattoo when i was 17 and they told me no but guess what! My brother is getting one because he completed his online school! Now i am a freshman in college. I graduated this past december. I was kinda disappointed because my boyfriend forgot the day i graduated and no one rlly made a big deal about it like yes i still have to walk the stage in a full week but i picked up a paper that verified i graduated. I was hoping for at least a dinner that i liked or something. Nothing at all. I also figured i would get my graduation party when i actually graduated but she talked ab doing it when i walked the stage so that was wtv. Back to the current problem about a month ago my mom asked if it would hurt my feelings if they threw my brother a graduation party before mine. I told her yes i graduated first! almost four months before. Well she has waited till last minute and the place i wanted to have it at is booked for the month of may on Saturdays. We was gonna have it the day after i graduated but that is mother’s day and it may be selfish but i want a day about me and my mom just could not understand why i couldn’t have it that day.Anyways i said we could just have it mid June it would be fine i mean ive done waited almost 5 months after i rlly graduated what the big deal. Well anyways she books it for mid-june and we are texting back and forth ab this and she asks me again if im gonna be upset if they have him a party before me. I am so drained from this so i say it’s fine. I feel like she definitely didn’t forget because i’ve done verbally to her face explained it would hurt my feelings. she asked me that a few days ago and we are having his party in a little over a week. Im upset bc he isn’t walking a stage at all and just got his diploma mailed a few weeks ago and she done wants to have his party but when i got my paper saying i graduated and when i actually did graduate nothing even really got said. I honestly don’t even want a party now and i feel like it is kinda stupid because i went straight into college and i am done through half of my freshman year already. AIO