I(23F) been dating my partner (25M) for about three years. When we started dating we discussed what we wouldn’t do or want in our relationship. After a while I stepped out and slept with an old flame from my past. And I lied basically about not entertaining other guys when I’m out with friends. But I lied all the time. After a while he confessed to me he has a drug and porn addiction. And he did the things he said he wouldnt either. My conscious feels guilt because he confessed all of that behavior but I can’t. I can’t tell him what I did behind his back too. That’s why I think I’m the bigger asshole here. It kills me inside to lie about what’s happened. I even asked if he also had physically cheated and he said never but i dont know.

I spoke to my close friends about the guilt and it seems to get heavier. They advised me to confess and come clean to see what he wants to do. Even so I don’t think he can forgive me. But I forgave him for his actions. If shit hits the fan i know we won’t last. I know we both aren’t perfect but this guy for I like him. And I know he still loves me. I’m at a situation where I want to save something but can I?