So I have been with my boyfriend since September, but we started to talk in July this past year. Let’s just call him Jake for right now. I did really loved him. It just I found out that he cheated on me with some other girl by having sex with her in the beginning of November. How I found out you may ask? I found videos of him having sex with the other girl. And that made me really heartbroken cause I did really wanted to work out. So I gave Jake another chance. Not going to lie it was hard to trust him again. But I found out about a month later he was talking to a different girl. Let’s name her Nancy. So I found out that he was talking to her and he also had sex with her. And he did record it too that’s how I found out. I was really upset with him. I told him I was done and I don’t want to be with him because I don’t want to be with a guy that keeps on doing that to me. He begged me to stay. I told him no because I’ve told him what if the roles was reversed. He really didn’t say anything to me. But Jake always talking shit to me on top of that. Like “she feels so good and better” and that pisses me off. So I told him that I would give him one last chance but he needs to stop talking to other females. So fast forward to the beginning of January he still was talking to Nancy and having sex with her. Towards the end of February and the beginning of March she texted positive for chlamydia. I was so upset. Of course I tested positive because I was having sex with him. So I was so done that I was seriously done. I blocked him on everything. But of course he called me on an unknown number. He was crying and said he was so sorry and won’t happen again. And he said he was going to k*ll himself because he would cut everyone off. I told him I cannot be doing this. I told him I don’t want a partner to treat me like that. I want a partner not to cheat on me. I want a partner that is loyal to me. I shouldn’t be treated like this. He was even crying on the phone saying it won’t happen again. I was crying too. Each time he cheated, each time I lost feelings with him. He told me he wants a family with me and a get married. I don’t want to be with a person who treats me like that. And you probably would guess right I took him back. But I have no feelings for him. I don’t love him. I clearly don’t want to be with him. I feel trapped. I don’t want to be with him. I’ve told him recently I didn’t love him anymore. He got upset and left and he called me a slut. Of course I lied and said I was joking. And he recently cheating on me about 2 and half weeks ago with a different girl not Nancy. But turns out that she got tested and she got tested for Chlamydia. She tested positive. Now I am so done. He said the reason he did cheated because I’ve gotten distant. And it’s true. I’ve gotten distant cause I don’t love him anymore. And I’ve putting all my anger on him. Jake gets upset or depressed when I do put my anger towards him. So am I the asshole for putting all my anger towards him?