I (F18) had sex for the very first time ever recently with my boyfriend (M19), and honestly, it was a huge, emotional thing for me. I was really nervous and scared, even though I trusted him enough to go through with it. It happened during the day with a lot of light, and I just didn’t feel comfortable being completely naked and exposed with no covers. I kept a blanket over me sometimes and tried to cover myself because it was really overwhelming.

Since then, my boyfriend has brought it up multiple times, telling me that I “ruined” the experience because I was shy and because I wouldn’t let him “see everything.” He keeps making little comments that honestly make me feel worse and worse about myself. I’m already insecure, and now I’m questioning if I did something wrong by not being more confident.

But deep down, I thought your first time was supposed to be about trust, love, patience, and making sure both people felt safe, not just making it perfect for one person. I wasn’t trying to ruin anything. I was just trying to protect myself emotionally because it was so overwhelming and vulnerable. AITA?