I was in a very confusing and exhausting relationship. From the start, my ex would cancel plans last minute, accuse me of not loving her, tell me I'd get tired of her, suggest I find someone else, and try to make me jealous. Every time I tried to get closer, she would pull away with excuses, blaming insecurity.

She would block me on WhatsApp, then send SMS saying she missed me. Her mother even called me once asking if I loved her. After we broke up, she invited me to her mother's birthday, said she still loved me, but then accused me of abandoning her and told me not to text again to avoid giving her "false hope."

She constantly avoided commitment, made jealous remarks, encouraged me to download dating apps, and later I even found her on those apps. She was reluctant to let me meet her family and hid her phone from me. She also said she had autism and deep insecurities, sharing that her past relationships had ended badly.

No matter how much I tried to maintain the relationship, any small comment I made would turn into a fight, and she would disappear after I opened up emotionally. When I finally ended it, she cried, blamed me for "taking her happiness away," blocked me again, but kept sending mixed messages afterward, saying she missed me but also telling me to move on.

Now, I feel devastated, extremely confused, and having dark thoughts about my life. I truly loved her, but I don't understand what I did wrong. I feel like I gave my best, but this relationship left me emotionally drained.