my boyfriend (m17) and i (f17) have been dating for almost eight months now. him and i have had a fair share of disagreements or arguments already but we usually resolve them in a couple days and we’re fine. but i’ve had a lot of problems with him as of late.

this is because my boyfriend often doesn’t text me back or call me, or make time to be with me as often as he says he wants to, because he’ll be doing things with other people. we both don’t have jobs but we live an hour from eachother so we go to different schools. he does online school but i go in person so he often doesn’t wake up until 2pm and then he gets on his game for the rest of the day and we don’t talk much. i’ve had a lot going on mentally and physically the past couple weeks and i’ve shared this with him and he offered his support and told me he would be there, and even offered to fix his sleep schedule which he did. but prior to him saying this, i went to a friend of mine for support because my boyfriend wasn’t being there for me at the time i needed it. i talked to my friend about relationship issues i was having with my bf and also my own personal problems. we started to spend more time together since we go to the same school and have been friends for years. i started to develop small feelings for this friend but i assumed it was mostly attachment. because i really just wanted someone to be there for me. i told my boyfriend about this and he was reasonably upset and still wanted to stay together.

however since i told him, he’s been really distant and cold with me even yelling at me or insulting me when we’ve been on call with eachother. i know that he’s hurt by my actions and he told me he just needed time to think about it all and forgive me, which i totally understand and do not mind giving him. but i miss him and i truly do love him. i explained to him that i only developed feelings for this other person because he wasn’t there for me. i’ve often times in our relationship had to push aside my own feelings just to benefit him and help him feel better. i’ve told him countless times that i don’t feel loved in our relationship and that i want more attention from him, more time talking to eachother, and just basic things that he couldn’t give me when i needed it. which is why i went to this other person. he often gives people he plays games with more than he gives me. and he’s only known these people two months at most. but still, i understand he’s hurt and he needs time but idk how i’m supposed to go about it. i’ve offered him to go on a break or give him space and he said he doesn’t want either of those things .

i truly feel bad and ik that people are gonna say if i really loved him then i wouldn’t have even developed feelings for someone else, but on my end it was more just for a way to get my feelings out and i got attached easily. but still, aita?