Me (28f) and my bf (39m) went to his parents yesterday. We had just had an argument the day before because I was noticing every time he would change our baby (6 months) girls diaper, she would cry hysterically. I had just read online about a stepdad being s- abusive to his stepdaughter and immediately I felt triggered. Intrusive thoughts took over. I grabbed her once he was done and started asking him why he thinks she cries. He said “she always cries during diaper changes” and I said “not with me she doesn’t” and I began to spiral and kept asking him the same question and I eventually made him swear on his mom he’s never done anything to her. He was super triggered and started to yell at the mere fact of me suggesting that and “accusing him” of that.

Fast forward to dinner with the in-laws and we’re about to eat. His dad says he’s gonna take my daughter “outside” and my bf says ok. Now I overheard this and thought nothing of it because I assumed outside meant just in the front yard. But he ended up taking her around the block. When I went to check on them outside, neither my bfs dad nor my daughter were anywhere to be found. Immediately I panic. My intrusive and irrational thoughts take over again. I go back inside and ask “where are they?!”. My bf goes and looks for them and finds them down the street. I tell my bf “please tell your dad to ask me next time he wants to take her for a walk. I didn’t know they were going to be leaving”. My bf again, gets triggered that I’m overreacting. I go inside and start talking to his mom about how uncomfortable I am with her husband taking my daughter around the block without asking me. I say something about how child abuse happens with people you know. And she starts to get visibily upset asking me what I’m implying.

Honestly I just panicked when my baby was no longer in my line of sight and I feel like I’m not getting any grace for it. It’s being clouded with the fact that I mentioned the seggs abuse statistic. I’m 6 months pp and suffering from srs pp dep, anxiety, rage

AITA