I (19M) have been dating my girlfriend (19F) let’s call her J for two years now. I’ve always been vertically challenged, so I’ve never exactly had a lot of options. J came into my life through mutual friends, and things between us have been great. We’re that couple that posts each other non-stop literally everyone in our area knows we’re a thing.

Fast forward to last night : my friends and I planned a night in the city. Airbnb, drinks, clubs, it was going to be a good night. As the night rolled on and the shots kept coming, someone had the bright idea to hit the clubs. Seemed like a good plan. until my boy (we’ll call him Buddy) hit us with a curveball. “Let’s go to a br*thel,” he said.

At first, I laughed it off. Thought about J, my sweet, talented, musically gifted girlfriend and said no. But then, Buddy dropped the bomb: “I’ll shout everyone’s session.”

Now, I’m not proud of what happened next. But in that moment, everything I’d been suppressing came flooding in my frustrations, my lack of experience, the fact that I’m 19 and still haven’t been with tall women. I still have so much to experience and explore. I couldn’t let my girlfriend hold me back. Especially when Buddy was being so generous.

And so, I gave in.

Buddy’s money was flying, but my meat soared to new heights. I won’t lie in the moment, it felt incredible. I was lost in the thrill and the freedom. I completely forgot about my little songbird waiting at home.

Then after the best three seconds of my life, it was over. I cleaned up. And then it hit. The guilt crushed me. I messed up. Big time.

Now I’m spiralling. What if one of my friends tells her? Do I confess? Do I beg for forgiveness? Get on my knees and cry for another chance? How do I fix this? I really don’t know and I need advice.

I could even start fresh with my other girlfriend in a different city?

Yeah. About that. My other girlfriend, let’s call her V, is a whole other story. If you want a part two, let me know.