I (18F) never really had crush on anyone. All of my friends have crush as if they get paid but I never had a single one. I assumed it's bcz I don't have a specific type.

Don't get me wrong, I do find people attractive, I just warm my eyes in their hotness and move on. Whenever I see someone attractive my first thought is "Damn, great genetics bro." THAT'S IT! And I have FOMO bcz of that.

Now a week ago, I saw that guy. A tea-stall worker. Not good-looking (according to the beauty standards) He was barely 5'7, grey hair, white dirty shirt, tea stains on the cuffs.

It wasn't even "God! So hot I wanna marry him" crush, it was more like "...damn...he's working quietly to provide for his family" crush. And since then my friends are making me feel like a bad person, literally! Shouting in the middle of the crowded mall "Look! She had her first crush on a poor old guy!" And...I'm feeling stupid.