I (23m) have graduated university last year and have been living at home since. Due to various issues that happened through my childhood I’ve suffered with extreme mental health issues - stuff that tbh even a therapist would take a while to get through. This continued into an abusive first relationship that I’m still recovering from two year later after 8 months of sexual assault. I’ve today had a massive blowout with my mum. I have days where I just cannot get out of bed and even when I can my motivation to do anything but doom scroll is so lacking. It’s all recently come to a head - a family member who had a lot of sway over my mum as a kid has started berating me for multiple things - to the point where he shouted at me and started telling everyone that I was selfish and ungrateful for telling him my boundaries (in this particular instance it was me being unable to go for his for lunch because I had plans with friends, even though I offered to see him for an hour in the park near my house - his house is a 45 minute drive away). Another such instance was when he invited himself to see me when I was at university during finals week and when I had two performances I was involved in so I had no time to see him. He then got angry because I told him I barely had time to sleep that week and made it all my fault. I’ve been ignoring him since this blowout and i’m trying to do better. Im in therapy when I can afford it, I’m meeting friends as often as I can to try stay social and active but my mum has had a go at me saying when she’s mentally low she feels she has to support everyone and i’m not supporting her back. She also agrees he’s been horrible but has had a go at me multiple times for not wanting to respond to him. But at this point it’s everything I can do to not suffocate under the immense anxiety and depression i’m constantly experiencing. I want to be better but it just seems like I’m constantly being put down from every angle but I can’t tell if it’s in my head or real - my mum is a lovely woman and she’s super supportive but it seems like she gets lost in her issues and then gets annoyed when I do the same with mine. AITA?