I am 19 years old and my boyfriend, who is 21, left me today to go on a vacation without me. He left me completely alone in his house. I live with him and his family because I’m far from my parents and this is where I currently stay.

Last week, on Tuesday, he asked me if I wanted to go island hopping with him. It was just going to be the two of us. At that time, I was sick. I had a bad cough and severe body pain, so I said no. But he insisted. He said this week was our only break to relax and have fun. He also said that if I joined him, he wouldn’t need to go with his family anymore. He told me that after this, he would be busy with school and work. He also said he didn’t want to leave me alone in their house.

Because of that, I agreed even though I was not feeling well. We went on a short vacation for four days. When we got home, everything seemed fine at first. But my health got worse. I was rained on during the trip and the weather kept shifting from rain to intense heat. My body could not handle the change. My cough got worse and the body pain became more severe. I’ve been taking medicine but it only helps a little.

We got back on Sunday and my health noticeably got worse. His mom gave me a herbal drink and told me to drink it like water. But honestly, it tasted like actual grass. I only managed to drink two cups because I could not handle the taste anymore. Later on, I had a small snack which was just peanut butter with bread. His mom and my boyfriend scolded me for eating that instead of drinking more of the herbal drink.

The truth is, the drink did not help me at all. It did not ease my sickness. I was still coughing, my body still hurt, and I felt really weak and tired.

Then yesterday, after I got home from school, he asked me if I would be okay with him going with his family on a trip. I felt betrayed. He already told me he would not go anymore because he wanted to spend time with me. Now he was changing his mind. He said he did not enjoy our vacation because I complained too much and that it was not enough for him. But I know he just wants to go because he saw that his favorite YouTuber will be on that island.

That hurt me. I told him, “Know your priorities. You can leave me even though I am sick just so you can see him and have fun. Meanwhile I am here, struggling with my condition. Why not go at a different time? The island will still be there. You will still be able to go later. Can you not adjust for me?”

He said he always adjusts for me and that I do not see the effort he makes. He reminded me that I went with him even when I was sick just to make him happy. He said he did not go this time for my sake. But later that evening he told me he is going after all because he is the driver. His father is joining them too but will return early because of business.

At that point I just gave up. I was so frustrated. He could not stand up for me. He knows what I am like when I’m sick but instead of caring for me, he insulted me and emotionally attacked me. He said I was selfish for taking away his happiness.

I locked myself in the bathroom because I could not handle it anymore. But he forced the door open. He scratched my arm and pulled my hair.

This morning I woke up and he was gone. He left a message saying he was called to go and that he will make it up to me.

He also made me feel like I was wrong for wanting to open up to my friends. He said that if I talk to them about what happened, I am disrespecting his family. Now I feel even more isolated. I do not know what to do. I have no one here. I skipped my morning class because I have no energy left. I still have one class this afternoon but I don’t know if I can make it.