I 15F have been struggling with my mental health, and as a result, I've been seeing a psychiatrist for abit . I'm on medication prescribed by the psychiatrist (fluoxetine/prozac) , but I've been feeling worse with it it makes me feel spacey and just blank and non human . I've repeatedly told both my psychiatrist and my mum that the medication doesn't seem to be helping and I Said ‘look I am Not taking this I don’t want to be on it.’ To which they both said okay we hear you which they obviously just said to shut me up

Even though I kept saying I don’t want this and it’s not the thing for me my psychiatrist did not only keep me on it but increased the dosage of the medication by 10mg. When I said I didn't want to take a higher dose, my mum jumped in supporting the doctor's recommendation. I said repeatedly that I wasn't comfortable with it, and I wasn't going to increase the dosage or even take it at all

On the way home, my mum started yelling at me in the car. She said that I don't care how I'm impacting the family, that I'm selfish, and that nobody can deal with me anymore. Now, she's giving me the silent treatment after yelling that im ruining everyone’s life like she was so angry she was slamming the wheel , and she's said she wants nothing to do with me and she won't speak to me until I agree to take the medication as prescribed. I feel incredibly hopeless and it feels unfair because I told everyone my plans to NOT take it and I said how I was uncomfortable repeatedly during the meeting and for ages before and even at the appointment they wouldn’t listen they just say ok we get it but still not only keep me on it but up the dosage.. I said I feel no difference but my mum and apparently my dad who does not ever ingage with me said they saw a difference even though me the ones who has to take the medication doesn’t feel better and it makes me feel weird and not great.

It’s like I have to force medication I don’t want or need down my throat so my mum and family in general aren’t angry or in a bad mood and im not taking fluoxetine for myself but for others and I hate that and the medication

So, AITA for refusing to take medication that I believe is making me feel worse, even though it's causing a major conflict with my mum?