For context, Im 21F. I am depressed and suicidal, and for my own safety, next week, Ill probably be staying in the psychriatic hospital, so this has turned serious.

I was talking about that with my boyfriend, 30M, telling him that there was a possibility we wouldnt see each other for a long time. He started telling me that there was a room I didnt know, the room that opens to god, and that if I believed in god, everything would be ok.

I was instantly triggered to say the least, when he told me that, it felt like a punch in the gut. The last couple of weeks he seemed to understand me, and now he was telling me that god had all the solutions. I am an atheist, I dont believe in god, but I respect his beliefs.

The convo turned to him asking me if I can prove god doesnt exist. After that, I started getting really mad, why was he telling me this? It felt like my poor mental state was because I didnt believe in god.

I left his house, and minutes later when I calmed down we talked things through.

Aita?