We have been saying for six months, and everyday felt like a journey that lasted at least a year. Every day was something new, whether it be good or bad. When we first began to date, she (17F) was so happy. She really enjoyed my company and would smile whenever she saw me. But the more I (17M) dated my girlfriend, she began to show me for who she really was. More and more mood swings from small things, and she gives me unwarranted treatment because of it. She can’t really accept my apologies until I come crying to her because I think that I am the reason to end the relationship. But I think I really ended up being the reason to end the relationship. She still has so much trauma built inside of her that is preventing me from giving my love to her without her lashing out if I forget one simple thing. Sure it may take me a bit more to post on social media, but I’m really not big on social media. I know the small things count, but why is it so hard to give me just a little more kindness when I forget to give you a goodnight message, or post you a certain day? That should not define my love, and if it does, I’m looking in the wrong ways of love. Sure I may need to sacrifice my own time for her, but when it involves me skipping school-related activities and less family time, I don’t think I want to change that. When she chooses to not find hobbies in her own time because she wants to spend time with me instead, I don’t think I’m ready. I don’t think I’m ready to be someone she uses to heal her past trauma, especially since this is still my first relationship. I’m just not ready. I told her I needed space to organize my mind, and the second she gave me that space she ends up calling and texting me every minute. She isn’t supposed to need me. She’s supposed to need herself first, and if she cannot see that, I don’t know if we should’ve ever been together.

I don’t know if that was just a huge venting sesh or a goodbye letter, but please tell me if I’m doing the right thing. I really feel like the AH but I don’t know if I can really keep up with being the one thing in her life.