My friend (20-year-old female as of 2023) and I (20-year-old female as of 2023) have been friends since 6th grade. I spent countless hours at her house throughout the years they've become like a second family to me.

Well in our senior year of high school, she was long-distance dating because her boyfriend moved to go to college. Unfortunately, they didn't last long. My friend told him that she wanted some time and space. He didn't like this so he made me a sort of go-between. At the same time, my friend would be all about the break one minute and then text him the next. Then she would freak out and delete the messages. After about a month of this, they started to make me the go-between for everything because they didn't want to talk to each other. After another couple of months of going back and forth because I care for them both I finally put my foot down and said I wasn't going to be in the middle anymore.

While all this was going on my friend and I had been talking about going to the same college and rooming together. I had applied to significantly more schools than she had at this point so I had a lot more acceptance letters and opportunities to audition for music scholarships. I auditioned for a scholarship that would pay 3/4 of my tuition. I got said scholarship and decided to go to that college. I told my friend that I was planning on going to this college (which was different then all of the colleges we had previously talked about) and she was less than excited for me.

She would tell me that I was selfish for auditioning for this without talking to her first and how I ruined our plans for school. She complained that it wasn't fair that I was getting money and she wasn't (but it was because she didn't apply for all that many scholarships). Then she would continue to hang out with me and act like nothing happened. I don't know if she just didn't realize how it made me feel or what.

Now I hardly speak with her because I feel like if I told her the truth about how my life was going after high school she would just pick me apart. So am I crazy for wanting to distance myself from her? Not completely kick her out of my life just not talk to her as much as I used to.