I tried posting this on another AITA but I'm not sure if it posted. So, a couple of weeks ago my cousin told me she's having a baby and I am very excited for her. However, I've been having some issues with it all because whenever I was little I always dreamed of being a mother, I wanted an army of children, I used to say, but when I hit my 20s I started having severe chronic pain and was diagnosed with multiple chronic illnesses and pains and my husband and I both agreed that we should never have a baby biologically because we don't want to pass down all of this onto a kid knowing that they'll get these too. It was devastating to come to that realization for me. But now that my cousin is pregnant and I'm the only one to know right now, she won't stop texting me about it. I finally asked her today to give me a bit of a break from it all because it's really weighing me down and causing me to be incredibly depressed. I can't stop thinking about all the wonderful things that come with having a baby; baby announcements, decorating the nursery, actually having the baby. It's messing with me emotionally and mentally and I just need a little bit of time to process the grief that I'm now feeling again. AITA for asking her for a break ? I want to know if it was wrong of me to ask for a break when I know she's really excited about having a baby and I'm the only family member she can really talk to about it right now.