I am honestly unsure if my situation qualifies for this reddit. I am hoping for more help, I just feel very lost, and I have no one to talk to. I can't talk to my bf about it because then I am making issues, and maybe I am, I don't know anymore.

Also, in advance, I am sorry for grammar. I am from Scandinavian, and english isn't my first language.

Anyway, I am soon to be 24F, currently 23F. I have a boyfriend who is 21M, soon to be 22M, so we have a 2 year age gap. Our age gap altho only 2 years has always been an issue to me mostly because I thought he was closer, altho 2 years isn't alot if feels alot when it's 21 and 23, then again I probably wouldn't have felt thwt wat if I was 21 and he was 23, not sure I am getting of topic. The reason I am bringing this up is becuse I was convinced it's was fine, altho I was/still am uncomfortable I was convinced it's fine and maybe it is fine or Maybe this was the first warning or maybe I am looking too much into it. This brought us to a patern for the past few months. we have been arguing alot, it often ends with me, according to him, saying something wrong, doing something wrong, or having to change. I have also cut out friends I considered important because he is uncomfortable with them, although he says, "I don't wanna put you on an island, I don't wanna isolate you. I want you to have your friends. " I feel like I am still being made to choose because he makes it very clear he is uncomfortable with them. Now for the reason he is uncomfortable, it's becuse my friend 23M is an ex, we here on and off when both of us where singel for a while, but have never disrespected each other's relationships. I am also friends with other guys i have liked or have liked me, I had some troubled teens years made mistakes but ended up with great friends who had never disrespectful my relationships. I don't wanna make him uncomfortable but I don't wanna feel alone with no friends of my own, don't get me wrong our common friends and he's friends are great, but I don't feel like my friends and my past is good enough for him. I feel torn.

Then comes yesterday, we had an argument becuse I wanted to meet up with a friend 23M I haven't seen in years, me and him has history he is an ex from like 6 years ago and he is VERY gay now, and I think the only reason he liked me when we where younger was becuse I was a girl that could pass as a boy and he was in the 'closet'.
We had an agreement becease he was uncomfortable and he wanted to talk to his friend about the issue, he wanted my permission to do so since he was gonna talk about me as well, I ask what he would say. I was wondering because he has been talking nonstop about how odd, weird, and uncomfortable my friendships are and how his friend has the same views as him. So I feel like he's making a "case" against me. But I have no issues with him talking to his friend about our issues, I don't feel like I am doing anything wrong, although I am wondering if my friendship really are that wrong. He again brings up my friends and how uncomfortable they make him. In the end, I get really sad and angry, but i calm down before I ask him if he is sure about being with me. He gets really angry and blows up on me. I ask to be left alone, and he does everything in his power to make sure to talk in some way, shape, or from, I even start feeling guilty for needing time alone. He is sounding really sad. He is calling, messaging, "throwing" my favorite things in my face like I am some kind of cat chasing a red dot. I tell him I'll cancel my plans he sat "No don't, I'll just have to get over it" but I feel like if I go he'll just say I choose others over him, he has before, if I don't go I'll be on the road of feelings alone again. He is a really good and nice boyfriend, he does nice things for me all the time. He is affectionate, kind, caring, and listen. He shows me that he cares through things, words, and gestures. However, when it comes to people, my friend, I feel like I can do nothing right.

I am sorry for this post for being all over the place, but I just feel so lost, with no one to talk to. I have an older sister, but we didn't grow up together, and we had VERY different childhoods, so she doesn't understand why I am struggling. So I can't talk to her.

Is the issue that I am friends with exes? Am I in the wrong? Or is this something else? Am I being isolated, or do I just not have friends I should have? I know my past is messy I have felt alot of disgusting over it but the peopel I am supposed to cut out is the same peope that helped to feel better, that made me feel like I was a person, not just my past and mistakes.

I hope someone can give me a type of opinion, clarity, perspective, or anything.

Again, sorry for this being all over and sorry for my grammar. I am very stressed, out of it, and emotional while writing this.

Edit: How do I move forward? Do I just keep bringing it up or? He says he's just insecure, but I don't know. I'm not sure I believe him when he says he's insecure, I know it's ab awful things to say.