Have you ever made the realization of how lonely you feel in the world when your own family only contacts you when they want something because same lmao 🤣 how sad and pathetic is that.. even more of a reason I want to move away and never look back (which is besides the point). But sadly that would look like abandonment to them and you would severe that connection for good… sometimes I do wonder if that’s what’s for the best for me though… then the guilt hits.. both sides of my family have lost such a huge part that plays into keeping the relationships together within the family and sadly they usually use me as a substitute for the lost love one of ours.. so do I continue to bite my tongue and smile through the bullshit or call it out as I see it.. better question is would I be the asshole for calling each of them on their shit involving me? ( I know you guys will probably want more context which I will give soon, I just needed to get it out rn) thank you in advance for even reading this.