I don't really know where to start with this. I'm 30 and I have a desire to seek a better relationship. I don't desire to immediately find someone new, but I think I want out of this one. From the beginning , there were some red flags I overlooked, his problem with alcohol (he had a breathalyzer in his car) , his inability to acknowledge different opinions and his inability to have deeper conversations. I guess 4.5 years later, I'm conflicted because I've intertwined my life with his, including a child from a previous relationship. I am in school right now , I work full time and I have my own startup that I'm working on. When I have downtime, I just want to spend it with him sometimes, getting to know him better and understanding what our future will look like. Whenever there is conflict, he doesn't want to discuss it, or he somehow flips it on me. He has this nonchalant spirit, where anytime it is supposed to be his place to seek me out of come after me, he doesn't do it. He doesn't fight for our love, he just lets me feel however I feel. When I told him he has the power of life and death in his tongue, he told me he can't control how I feel. Another thing is that I don't think we have the same faith and I've been struggling with this for sometimes because he's not a bad person, he just doesn't follow what I believe to be how a household should go, God, the husband, the wife, children, and so forth. I'm not super conservative, I just think there should be order for us to function. I just went out on a friendly date with someone I met at a concert and we had deeper conversations than I've ever had with my partner and it's left me feeling like I can find someone who stimulates me mentally and who is emotionally in-depth. I guess I just feel like the asshole because we went through the trouble of me and my LO moving here, and now it's like what was all that for. ... I also feel afraid to go off on my own again because I have my own issues with my family and it would just be me and my LO...