i have a best friend, call her B, a boyfriend C. I was dating C for a few months, we were really serious about our relationship. B was with us and we’re friends with us the entire time we were together, we had a friend group. B filmed him officially asking me out. Me and C were doing really good until it went down hill, i started catching him watching porn and all nonsense boys do. I was over it and broke up with him, but still going to his house, doing things couples do and technically still together, but was fed up with his bs. i still loved him and stocked around waiting for him to change, i thought the break up would make him change his ways and be better. i noticed that B and C would have something going on, it was strange. I didn’t think too much of it but always went through C and B’s phone and told them to stop texting each other and communicating becaude i felt uncomfortable. It was hurting me and they knew it. They both said they loved me and blocked each other. It was okay, i had some thoughts but i was surviving. then one day, C’s friend texts me telling me to stop interfering with B and C as they were talking, that’s when it went down, i called them trying to get an answer but they were too ashamed. my best friend had “talked” or had something going on with my boyfriend. i was heart broken. this happened November of 2024, i found out a few weeks ago that they had slept together on the first night of talking, she had came over to his house and slept with him, while i was crying to her about him, and when me and C were still doing couple things and technically still together. Now, C has cheated on B with me, asking me to come over and sleep with him and asking for photos, just straight cheating. I’m not telling her this, she did it to me and lied about it. she’s very upset because C keeps on talking to me and C can’t seem to never cut off every single communication with me. B has said, I think C misses …. well me. a few days ago i was in the car with C’s older brother picking up C from work (btw we both work together) C’s older brother was dropping me off home. But plot twist, B was there waiting for C after work, B didn’t have a ride home so B came in the car where i was. B had no clue i was there waiting for C to finish work, that day it would of been our one year anniversary,B cuddled up all over C, it broke my heart seeing them together. I could tell she was angry. But I still love and miss him. I keep communicating with him and i don’t want to cut it off. I’m entertaining him cheating on her with me. The thing B did to me, im doing rigjt back. I don’t want B to feel ‘wildflower’ about me or anything bad, like i’m a threat. I’m entertaining him cheating and not telling her. Am I the asshole???? Pls helpp!