AITAH Am I the Asshole ???Continuing Music and not apologizing?

AITAH I’m sure I will get haters and people who think I’m being dumb . But I lived a hard life that left me with deep scars on my soul. I had to work really hard to go from being homeless to getting a Masters degree and owning my own home . So from 12 yrs old I’m been on my own and now I’m 40 and life’s not so do it die , yea bills but I always find a way to manage them . So , started writing songs and it has been very rewarding and I feel lighter every time I finish a deeply emotional song. Although my music sucks because I don’t have proper equipment and usuing my phone . But regardless I write beautifully emotional tragic songs , and recently started rapping on Rap Fame app , and my boyfriend has lost his mind . At first I was making some friends and collabs but because he said it was inappropriate, I cut off the conversations and basically said I can collab but gotta keep the socializing to a minimum, strictly buisness. Well , now he’s makes fun of me , flips out on me , convinced I’m talking to guys , but I’m not I might cordinate times and song ideas but everything is kept to a few sentences, I have replied many times to guys who might make a , your pretty comment , I say I have a boyfriends just putting that out there now , so if they do a collab and we gotta talk they not out the gate . But that still is not good enough, and I did share my life storey with one guy but it’s was a response to a track he just put out that was about his life and there was similar things, so I suggested we work on my song memories together and told him my back story , my boyfriend lost his mind , my friend asked after I proposed the song collab and told my back storey he replied , hey let get on a phone call and talk , I replied no , I don’t do phones calls , I probably cross a line sharing my past with you so let’s just keep the convos short and about the song , thank you for understanding.

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memories: Hook ; “As time slowly fades memories I can still feel a hole left in me Daydreaming about the past I can see your reflection in the In the hourglass So , I have a really good skill at pouring emotions I to catch my hooks and heartfelt music , I cried uncontrollably while writing Memory of Mallory, it was so hard todo , but I felt better releasing all those feelings once I was done . So am I the asshole?

I used to share my songs with him and Iv tried many times to talk with him and include him but he thinks I’m wasting time being stupid, I stopped singing in front of him because I can’t anymore , he made me feel embarrassed one time when he said , why do you do sad songs , nobody wants to hear that distressing stuff and you can’t sing , it sounds terrible, so I have a huge complex when he’s in the room and I just shut down and wait for him to leave , then continue .

AITAH for continuing to make music and invest in better equipment instead of Quiting and saying I’m sorry?