I (16F) and my bf (16M) have been dating for a year and a half now and are in a happy, stable relationship. For context, my bf has LOVES playing the guitar and wants to persue this as a career or at least a hobby in the future. I have always been supportive of everything that he does, including his love for the guitar and am a huge believer in supporting and loving your partners no matter what (as long as it isn't dangerous). However, my bf comes to me about a month or so ago saying he's finally got a show/gig for the first time ever and wants me and my parents to come and watch. Immediately, after hearing this news, my internal thoughts cringe as I imagine him playing his guitar infront of a bunch of people on stage. At the time I don't tell him my feelings out of fear that I would make him feel bad as I know how much this means to him so I just smile and say I'll talk to my parents about it. I just feel SO bad for feeling this way as I so desperately want to be happy for him and support and love him through this experience. I guess I just feel this mix of anxiety that he'll mess up, especially since I rarely hear him play because when we do see each other we like to be present and in the moment, therefore actually seeing him play infront of a live performance is terrifying to me.

The show is tomorrow and I have spoke about it with him now and he reassures me that everything will be fine. I just suppose I need advice on how I can overcome this feeling of anxiety and 'cringeyness' as I really want to have a good time and celebrate with him afterwards. And if I'm a bad person for feeling this way. None of my fiends have really experienced this so i can't talk to them about it and my parents just brush past my feelings and think I need to just watch the show and see what happens. So am I the asshole for feeling this way and how can I overcome these feelings? Ps sorry if this didn't makes sense, I'm just rambling atp.