Im just gonna put a slab of text because ive tried to write this so many times.

My sister (23f) has gone through her first WLW relationship of 3 years (on and off) and its suddenly become my fault. Me and her ex had a close bond due too being ex-weird kids and both people who vaped and smoked. I am (15f) and dont feel a sense of trust with my sister, that was diff for her ex who felt like a real older sister to me. Because of this my sister had a problem with me once they broke up, claiming i was "exactly like them" and that i would say "the exact same thing" as the ex gf just because i wouldnt be responsive when she was having a TANTRUM about next to nothing.

- She also claims that i am the "trouble child" when i was only 13

- Bullies me because my gf is a Masc and bullies my brothers gf bc she thinks shes "weird"

I really fucking hate how rude she is towards my choices like shes trying to dictate my life, not help me during it. She is so rude to my girlfriend and talks so bad about her and my brothers gf too.

- Extremely rude to any opinion i have, when i choose peace and to not give one she forces it out of me and gaslights me until i do

- Manipulates me into thinking my friends arent good for me, leading into me dropping my friends for her to say " i never said u cant have those friends"

Basically invalidates me in any shape or form she can.

She has been going through weird impulsive actions or things she would never bare to think of, she makes the home unhappy and has every time she is living with us. She is always crying heavy over the tiniest things and runs right to my room where i have to ultimately make a choice between her and my parents, she always tries to convince me our family is bad which i agree too. To realize she is the reason its bad. She is the reason there is conflict, she creates a problem our of every minimal thing which can easily just be forgotten if you have some fucking self regulation.

And Dont get me wrong i have done anything in my power to help her out, but i just cant because she is so stubborn and doesnt wanna listen to a 15yo. My family relies on me to help her because im the only other girl and she has a problem with my mum. But how am i any help when she cant accept anything

Im also going through my own issues like fucking functional schizophrenia and depression.

There is so much more about her but im honestly drained to even write this out, ive been dealing with her tantrums since i was a child. Ill probably write a better one of these when im in a better thought process.

I know shes hurting but i am only 15 and do not need to load of her whole trauma onto me, she has always been known as being an emotional wreck and someone who is just over dramatic. To give her credit she is a strong person who is doing extremely well for herself, but is extremely emotionally dysfunctional.

Pls just give ur opinions and pov. Im not a bad sister and shes just making me feel like i have been the worst.