Hi, everyone, it's my first post here.

I love my girlfriend, but recently (a few months ago) she gets more and more de-attached from me. Often when we are together on a call in Discord (only way we can is online or phone number) , she can say that someone calls her and leave me alone in a call. I hate being alone. I'm unfortunately jealous. I know she flirts with other people, but she always says that this are innocent flirts and just messing around.

We have different sleeping habits, which is taking a doll on me. One time she only came back to my call in 23:45. She only called me at 15:50 and than we talked for around 2 hours after which she was called in other call. She only came back after 5 hours to then just to leave the call few minutes later, because she was called again.

I'm not prioritized at all. She knows I am quite depressed lately, and I feel betrayed, because when I need her attention she isn't there for me. I help her when she feels down and want to I get in return? She literally once forgot to come back to my call. She knows I don't have much friends (irl and online) and that I don't trust a lots of people.

I found out that my girlfriend is poly by one of our Discord friend. My gf wanted an open relationship with me, but I disapproved it, also she after we came together she told me she is still holding a relationship with her ex girlfriend (In short my gf broke up with her ex gf, but still flirts with her to make her ex feel good). I think she cheats on me or considers it. She isn't catfishing me and I know it for sure, but still I feel hurt.

I told her multiple times that there are better options than me and that if she want's she is free to break up with me.