Me (18F) and my uncle (late 20's M) have gotten close since 2 years ago and we get along well. We relate to each other and love each other (platonically of course) and we trust each other a lot. Despite all this I find myself becoming anxious and scared of him sexually assaulting me and taking advantage of me. I have second hand trauma from finding out my great uncle sexually assaulted my cousin when she was very young while she slept and no one believed her after. My mom even allowed my great uncle around me growing up too. I have another cousin and a friend who have been sexually assaulted by their (past) stepfathers. I grew up around them (stepfathers/greatuncle)and I am grateful I didn't get sexually assaulted but sad that I couldn't be the target instead of my cousins and friend. I always felt weird around the stepfathers and my great uncle but I thought I was just delusional, until I heard from my friend and cousins about their sexual assault from them. Something I feel I should add is that I have dreams of sexual assault and even gruesome ones. This is why I am fearful of my uncle ever sexually assaulting me though I don't think he would. He cares, loves me, and trusts me the most. Am I being parinoid or maybe there's signs? I don't think there's any in my post so i don't know. He does like petite anime girls and would never want to be seen as a pedophile. Some of my family members (adults and younger) find it also weird that we hangout.