Okay to start I[15f] and my ex gf [15f] have always had a confusing relationship. I'm writing this at 2:30 because I'm petty and want insight if I'm right. So we broke up 2 weeks ago on Monday and I genuinely can't with her. To preface, We both come from strict-ish India Catholic and homophobic homes. So our relationship started in 7th and it barley lasted a month. She broke up with me three times. The reasons being how oh my cousins practically raised me and they're homophobic so bye 💜 The next day she literally texted me saying she made a big mistake and that she loves me. The third time we broke up it was official and I was heartbroken. I want it to be clear that my mental health at the time was horrible, I was planning on suicide and hurting myself. At least my grades weren't low. Anyway she later told me that it was because she wasn't ready for a relationship... She asked me out by the way and we were friends for 7 years before that. I know all of this is a mess and forgive me, but a key part in all of this is that we were doing it too. Yes I know at the ripe age of 13 and 12 (we have less than a 2 month gap) is horrible but I was pressured. So even after we broke up we were essentially friends with benefits and she called me her ex gf in front of everyone...Okay but after all this in the summer she went on a trip to India for 2 months ( said she'd text but didn't) So when she came back I was ignoring her ass and trying my best not to talk to her. In September she got with a girl at her school and from there I made sure to distance myself even though I still loved her. No gf wants a ex hanging around. And my ex gf ( let's call her angel ) broke up with her within a couple of weeks. Apparently got over her in 3 days. Then ironically at a retreat we got back together after talking and angel telling me that she still had feelings. After that we were together but she always did same things to hurt me. But this is just some of the backstory, any questions just ask because I might not sound coherent. In the present time, her parents found weird messages between us on her phone. Mind you messages that she made me send 🥀 And they wanted her to stop talking to me, she told me and from there we've had limited contact. But then around a month or two ago she's just been completely ignoring me. One day I see her talking to be friend Cait (fake) and mind you Cait hates angel with a passion. Basically Angel told her how I was making her uncomfortable right and how she wanted to break up with me so bad and didn't see a future with me. When Cait asked if Angel was going to tell me, she said no because I quote "she might hurt herself and go crazy" 😭 Cait was appalled and told me . Oh and the uncomfortable was me bopping her head .... She never told me mind you. When I tried talking to her to see if we broke up, she just ignored me. Now I'll summarize the cheating since my arm hurts. So basically she said that she stopped liking me about 2-3 weeks before we broke up and then she developed a crush on a boy at her school. She said that oh when I liked him, I had no feelings for you. Like girl are we serious, and she wasn't going to even break up with me. I had to forcefully call her for an answer. Last thing is that we were on a break for that month, but the break specifically was for us to focus on school and still talk. Her excuse was that oh we never set rules for me.. I don't know if all of this adds to cheating because she's making me second guess myself. So AITAH for being upset?