I know the title is worded horribly, but hear me out. I’m a 14 year old boy and my mom is 38, she’s been a very bad parent in literally every aspect from letting me starve for days to using me as her therapist since i was 11 and having to listen to her daily episodes and screaming since then and got PTSD from it, and she also did a lot of messed up stuff that isn’t related to the event but anyway.. this leads us to what happened, she came to my room randomly after a fight acting like nothing happened (typical) and began talking casually until she pointed at my leg and said i was skinny, not as a compliment but in a grossed out tone and told me it doesn’t even look pretty at this point just disgusting and said i look malnourished.. i said “maybe cause your fat ass devours all the food” (it isn’t true, it was just an insult that came out at the heat of the moment about her weight to get back at her she doesn’t eat so well either but thinks it’s okay to neglect me cause she doesn’t like to eat a lot herself) and it turned into another argument and she went away. after a bit she told me to take out the trash and i told her sorry i can’t carry 100kg and that made her devastated anyway she still makes occasional comments about me being “skinny and tall and ugly” (i’m not even tall i’m 5’4 and 54kg she’s just 5ft) as a “joke” to get back at my comments about her height and weight cause i called her a midget but i ignore it honestly i feel kinda guilty for making these comments i don’t know why even though she started it and i just wanna know if i was the asshole?