This happened during the pandemic but I always questioned myself about it, so I decided to post it here.

I was in this relationship for almost 5 years and I could see the changes through the years, as time went by I started to feel neglected, sometimes diminished...And every time I thought about the future with this person I felt like there was something wrong, our values that used to be the same weren't anymore, our dreams and priorities weren't that aligned anymore. I felt like we were expecting different things from the relationship.

So I sat down and talked to them. I told them my concerns, what were my feelings about us. That I loved them, but the relationship was hurting me. And they said that they were going to change, try to be a better partner and etc. And I said that we should try.

And we did.. then the pandemic came, we were in lock down, I love with my elderly parents and so does them. I was completely isolated, and taking all possible precautions, we were not seeing each other in person due to that. But they were living a regular life, going to the gym,working and roaming around. And also, no promised change was made

And this made me realize how far apart we were. Our beliefs were different, our values our dreams, completely different. Yes, I loved him, so so much, but I would get terrified of the idea of spending the rest of my life with them. When we started dating they were like my personal dream that came true, but as time passed I was hurting more and more.

So I decided to prioritize my dreams, my life and myself and break up with them. But we were in the middle of a global pandemic I couldn't see him to do in person, and I would not be brave enough to do it over the phone, so I texted them. They were shocked, asked me why. And I just said that we grew apart and were too different. I couldn't make me say that I gave them a chance to get better and it didn't happen, and all the tiny reasons that build up and made me say goodbye. I couldn't.

When we were together it felt perfect, like puzzle pieces, until some cracks showed up and broke my heart piece by piece. I just had to end it. But I don't know if it was wrong of me to do it through text, after all it was 5 years, not 5 days.

Btw, less than a year later they were living with someone else, so it made me feel like I made the right decision.