Hi I need to know if I am the a*hole, for a bit of information I’m 17F he’s 18M we met when I was 15 he was pretty much 16, I knew him for about a month then we got into a relationship everything was perfect. When we got together I was living at his house. Me and my dad were arguing all the time fighting he kicked me out thats why I was living with him. By all means I’m not trying to make him out to look like a horrible person I still love that boy to bits. In the first week of being official he was invited out to a “piss up” which if your American it just means to go out and get drunk. I asked if I could come he told me no which was fine I didn’t make a big deal. Around 7-8 months later I was at my mates flat while my boyfriend was at his dads this girl posted a photo of her cuddling with my boyfriend my heart sank I knew this girl had a thing for my boyfriend but I trusted him. I tried calling my boyfriend multiple times he kept declining and said “if you keep phoning I’m going to block you”. I then asked my mate who I was with to phone him (my boyfriend knew I was there since he had my location thought I had already gone home, and I told my friend everything that I just seen so he knew what was going on) my friend then called him and my boyfriend answered straight away saying “I’ve fucked up” “she knows” my friend was confused obviously bc he did not know my boyfriend cheated but I’d always bring up how I had a feeling my boyfriend cheated!! LADIES TRUST YOUR GUT!! He then admitted to what he done not after he got caught but 4 months later I was upset but then my boyfriend started going out getting on (I can’t say names or drugs so I’ll use emojis) 🍃💊❄️🍻 we were constantly arguing because he would ignore me for hours or even days. His mates were the ones talking to me everyday to let me know what they were doing and that Lewis was okay because he wouldn’t want to speak to me. Whenever I would try leave him he would threaten to kll himself and then ignore me but he tried breaking up with me more than 100 times. Back to now me and him weren’t arguing as much he got a job. But I couldn’t shake the feeling or thoughts of everything he put me through and he really needed help with his anger he started getting in my face screaming at me punching walls around me grabbing me so hard it left bruises of where his fingers were I decided to break up with him about 2 weeks ago he’s constantly blowing up my phone everyone is telling me how depressed he is and he’s saying he’s changed and he’s sorry I don’t know if I should go back AITAH? If you read this thank you so much 😊