I'm not gay, but for some reason a lot of black people think I am because I recall 8 separate instances of them calling me a f***** because I paint my nails. Yesterday, I realized that I'm dealing with a serious trigger. As I walked by this black woman on the street, she said "ain't need no f***** 'round here." I turned and said, "I'm not a f**, but you're a n**."

She went on about how I'm a racist as well as a f*****, but I just kept walking. I hate these situations. I wish I could ignore it, but I feel very bothered by these homophobic insults. I don't think I deserve it. I actually think I'm an asshole for what I said to her, and honestly maybe I'm better off leaving society. I clearly am not welcome and can't handle the consequences of being me.