so for a bit of backstory me and my girlfriend are both females, i won't be saying names or ages just for privacy reasons. i only really came to reddit to get an unbiased opinion because obviously my friends and her friends will take sides. so to start off really i am diagnosed with bpd, bipolar and adhd i feel like i need to throw this in. around october time i caught my girlfriend texting her ex after i told her i was uncomfortable with her texting her ex and she was texting her " i love you " behind my back my heart broke when i saw the messages but we moved past that but my trust for her was gone i was overthinking alot and i had some problems with her going out although when i thought i was ready and our trust was okay again i said she could go, long story short the ex she was texting was there. fast forward to now spring break, she keeps asking if its okay for her to go to a sleepover and i've explained multiple times that im uncomfortable with it but she doesn't understand why even after i've explained to her why im uncomfortable with it, i have a routine set for my weeks and when something messes that up my whole brain is messed up, i was coming over to her house and she hit me with the " im going out", i just stood there in shock even when i begged her not to go screaming and crying, she still left. which leads me to writing this post, sitting in her bathroom crying. i really don't know if im in the wrong for not being comfortable with her going out? i genuinely don't know what to do anymore she's all i have i don't want to leave her but i feel like i have to this relationship is draining me, please give me advice reddit!