me (f18) and my ex bsf (19) were friends since we were 6/7. everything was going well for us, we aren't neighbors but she doesn't live that far from me either. so basically, not long i've come to realize that every bonding time, every activities we've ever done was all planned by me. i've come to realize that i was always the one who initiated things. like hangouts and celebrations. as i've said, we don't live that close to each other so we often communicate through messenger chats, but as u might've guessed, yes, i was also the one who had to contact her first for us to have a conversation. but of course i didn't mind that much since we could see each other in person every now and then. but the thing that hurt me the most was, she never once greeted me on my birthdays. i mean, she did greet me once or twice, it was my 16th birthday and i remember it being 11 in the evening that time, the day's about to end, but no message or sign of her. i messaged her saying " i'm still waiting for u " and she responded with " waiting for me to do what? " at first i thought it was a joke so i kept on giving her hints but i realized that she actually didn't know. so i told her that it was my birthday and all she said was " hbd, friend. so sorry, was just too busy these days to remember " of course i didn't buy what she said about her being busy. being busy was the only excuse she could ever think of whenever i asked why she wasn't able to greet me. every year, i wake up at 11 pm, the night before her birthday just so i could be the one to greet her first. i stay up late just so i could greet her at exactly 12 am. to spam her happy birthday texts and give her gifts. and all i got was measly 2 halfhearted birthday greetings within our 13 years of friendship