I've (24M) been a loner since childhood, sensing something was off with the people around me, perhaps due to my confident narcissism… idk that’s kinda why I’m on this page.

My bipolar older sister has spent everyday for 20 years with the intention of purposefully hurting me, both physically and emotionally. It's been the worst trauma of my life, yet I've managed to stay positive while she has not. She is clearly demented, so my family walks on eggshells around her. I understood the different treatment so I was never bothered by it. Until we grew up and they’re still treating her like a child while I’m now excluded from family events like holidays and weddings because she won't be around if I am. I've always offered soooo much kindness and support for my entire family, and they acknowledge this.

AITA for not caring about my family anymore? I haven't met the new babies, haven’t celebrated Christmas in years, and don’t want to be with people who don’t welcome or love me. I have found many who do appreciate me. Additionally, my family's homophobia makes it worse, as I am gay.

I feel guilty for my lack of guilt when they show me pictures of the new babies. Everyone feels dead to me, and I’m unsure how to reconnect. My childhood trauma has led me to cut people out of my life, possibly too quickly.