For context, I was raised by my stepdad since I was around 2 years old and throughout my childhood I barely received any love or any kind of material affections from my family, we only communicate when we have to and I would mostly be in somewhere by myself ever since I was only a kid. During that time I was trying my best at school, I got move up a grade earlier than most kids and I thought I would be taken to somewhere fun like the beach or my mom would give me compliments, but instead I was told that I wasn't enough and went on a rant about how my 4 year old younger sister and my 8 years old big sister is better than me, since then I became withdrawn and refused to interact with anyone in my family. While everything that happened my stepfather who promised to love me like his own never show his face around, he only there to give money for lunch or pickups. So when i was 14 my stepfather had a new friend who sell drgs and my mom is selling noodles as her side job (she was a housewife) and my stepfather's friend started to flirt with my mom through texting and during that my stepfather had already become addicted to those drgs and started accusing mom of cheating on him with that friend, he would start cursing at her around me and my siblings or hurt her, but she never leave my stepfather, thinking that he might become better until one afternoon when I was playing games on my laptop he was looking through the window outside. I didn't know why but after that day he became interested in me, he often smiles at me weirdly or touching my arms and neck, i didn't think much of it. Until one evening while I was minding my own business he came right into my room and says that he loves me while his hands were touching my body inappropriately, I asked him to leave but he kissed me right in my mouth. I was scared because he was about to pin me down so i excused myself to the bathroom and ran to my little sister outside who has my mom's phone and call my sister, telling her everything but when my mom went to confront him he denied it and mom yell at me for making a hige accusation and trying to ruin the family.

Now that my mom take us back to my grandparents house I became paranoid and I often dreamt about him trying to kill me or my mom, then she left to 'work' with her new boyfriend who she barely met online. Now I can't sleep since we moved back to grandparents' house, I don't want to tell her anything because she'd brush it off or change the topic, one time I tried to tell her to take me to seek help from therapy but she never mentioned it after. I resent my mom ever since, AITAH? (please don't be harsh or anything, i just need reassurance)