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My wife and I are basically separated for past 3 years. We both were just waiting for kids to grow up a little before we proceed with divorce.

She fell out of love with me after having kids and refused to take any steps to fix things and then I forced myself to fall out of love with her.

Only reason I have tolerated our living conditions is because we are independent of each other. She has never been a burden on me, neither have I been on her.

She has apologized for her behalf and wants to atleast try to work on our marriage. She even told me that she will try her best make sure that her illness has minimal impact on my life.

I just don't think I am mentally capable of reliving the moments that lead to our situation. Only reason I haven't offed myself is by basically not think about it and moving forward with my life. I have created a wall in my mind and I am not gonna start scratching it.

I am moving out in June. Everyone is going to hate me so I am quitting my job and moving out of the state. I will leave the decision about our kids on her. I will never take kids away from her. I do think kids will be better off with me, than with a sick wife, but I will not force her hand.

She can have everything, house, car etc.

That's the best I can do.

Aitah??