I (45M) work as a public prosecutor in a district court and have built a very respectable image in my locality. I've been married for 15 years, and we have a 6-year-old son. But here’s the truth, I'm not his biological father. My cousin is.

My wife and I tried to have children for 8 years, but I suffer from impotency. Only my wife knew the truth. My parents, unaware of my condition, blamed her for our childlessness and used to taunt her, saying things like I should marry someone else to have a child. She bore all that quietly for me.

In our intimate life, I tried to make her happy using sex toys and other means, but she became increasingly desperate for a child of her own. Eventually, I gave in to her request to try for a child with someone else because she wanted to conceive it naturally. We decided to involve a relative because of the safety issue. She told me she had someone in mind who would be safe and assured me it would only be for conception. That person turned out to be my cousin.

With my consent, she went ahead with him and successfully conceived in the first month. She promised it was strictly for the child and that she’d end all contact after that. But something changed after some time. She started acting like a teenager in love ,happy, excited, and different. I found out that she was secretly meeting my cousin, even after the pregnancy without my knowledge.

We fought. I told her this wasn’t what we agreed on. But I also had to confront my own feelings of inadequacy, knowing I couldn’t give her what he did physically. I was stuck angry, hurt, but silent.

Now here’s where things spiraled. Recently, my wife found out my cousin was dating someone else. Out of jealousy or rage, she called that girl and told her everything about the baby, their relationship, everything. The girlfriend broke up with my cousin and later came to me to tell me what was really going on. I had to pretend I was shocked and unaware, even though I knew most of it already.

When I asked my wife, she said she lost control after hearing about the other girl and didn’t mean for it to happen. My cousin then threatened her saying that if she interferes in his life again, he’ll tell me everything.

I feel like I’m trapped in a mess I allowed but never wanted. I feel betrayed, hurt, and humiliated. I tried to do the right thing for love, for my marriage, for a family. But now I’m stuck with this pain and no peace.