For context. We’re both 21. He’s my manager at work. He left me rather suddenly last year which was rough since he was my first. Then he started treating me how he used to at work, and so after months of flirting I confessed that I still had feelings.

He says “look I still don’t know how I feel but I do know this, I’ve missed you for months and I wanna try again with you.” … I couldn’t believe it. I’d been so in love with him for long, in my intoxication I had the clarity to say “let’s take things slow” id wanted to go to the movies, but there are none in theatres, so eventually he says “wanna just come over?” I went.

After talking for a few hours in his bed, just to clarify I said I wanted to have sex but that I wanted to wait. I thought he’d be like “of course” and heavenly light would shine behind him and roses would fall all around us. But he says “why??”. I explain. Somehow… he’s still confused… we’re still talking about it. He’s saying he wants me to “do it if I want to” so In my head I’m like whatever I’ll just blow him, it’ll be uncomfortable if I don’t do anything. Only after does he say “I’d rather you didn’t tell anyone about us” (he’d told everyone when we were dating AND when he dumped me last year)… the next time I went over, we had sex. He’d said he was still sure about trying again. In the morning we were intimate again. I spent a few hours with his family, and when he dropped me off did he said “it’s been nice but I don’t love you, maybe now you can move on”