My grandma got operated and now she's back home, she got back home yesterday. The thing is ... An aunt scolded me because I didn't go take care of her at the hospital and well... I wasn't even here, I got here on a Thursday and I wanted to see a friend, and the next day I went to a slumber party with another friend.... (Thursday and Friday) And on Saturday I came back and saw my grandma already home, so I asked her how was she feeling and how did it go... She asked me to wash the bathroom and I did do... I felt bad for not going because honestly I don't know what to do in those cases and my mom said I should just help her even more now. (I also helped her get up from bed, etc) That was yesterday, today I was helping her get out of bed and I don't even know how. My uncle said "she's a nurse now" My grandma answered "she's Not suitable for nursing" Of course I don't know how to take care of anyone, I haven't done that in my life, I'm always the one being taken care of (I have been in the hospital like 3 times because of Su1c attempts) and well now I feel so stupid... I feel like an asshole because I don't wanna take care of her... Like sure, I love her... But I fint know how to take care of her, I feel so uncomfortable... Am I an asshole for this? Although I'm still gonna help her with getting up and doing chores but... Idk Edit: am I also the AH for being depressed? (I have BPD) I have been feeling so bad (not because of my grandma, I was already depressed)and well I'm in my own world....