I 18 f am engaged to my 21 m fiance. A little back story I have a lot of tramu from my childhood, and anger issues so if it's between getting mad, or shutting down I'd rather shut down to avoid hurting, or taking my anger out on him. I will state we do talk, but in very high energy issues it does happen. I love my fiance to death and I want a life with him, but he has hurt my feelings, and me. The first time I shut down he had choked me I will be honest it's a link but at that time it scared me he apologized and I forgave him. Another time I wouldn't kiss him before he went to work I was sitting down and he shoved my face and left I texted him and it was fine. He's made like comment that hurt my feelings but always apologized I'd like to state it doesn't happen much. But also aitah for keeping a eye on his location cause I'm worried he'll cheat cause he downloaded a dating app to look at other chicks even though he deleted?