My friends and I decided to go to a theme park during the weekend, and I don't know if it is relevant but they are all older than me.

Being the weekend, the park was expectedly crowded and we didn't want to wait so we bought the fast passes based on which rides we wanted to go on. There was this ride that was too scary for one person in the group so they opted out and waited while the rest of us went in.

Fast forward we rode the ride, it was fun but we had one fast pass left and it would be a waste since we had already paid for it. No one wanted to go alone so I ended up taking the pass because I didn't mind, after asking everyone if they wanted to go instead. This ride was one of those that snapped your picture before the climax so l just wanted to go get a better picture for fun too.

This is maybe where my mistake happened. The ride didn't have a place to put your bag so you'd have to put it on the floor. I didn't want to do that like the first time because it wasn't super clean (also because my bag was light enough to be flung around a bit). So I passed everything to one of my friends. My phone was charging so I didn't bring it with me and left it in my bag. My thought process was 'it's not going to take long I probably don't need it, it would just be a hassle to bring anything in, I just wanted to enjoy the ride.

The first time we all went in as a group, the time slot for the fast pass had just opened so we were the first to get in and out, but now obviously some time had passed and other people have bought fast passes too, so I did have to wait in line just a bit, maybe 5-15 minutes extra.

I went on the ride, it was a blast, I come out and see the picture taken and I remembered I didn't bring my phone with me to snap a picture of it. No biggie. My phone was with my friends who were outside right? So I ran out of the gift shop where the pictures were displayed and went to the front of the ride where I thought my friends would be waiting since there were seats there. Couldn't find them. Went around the whole block multiple times, the people there were probably wondering why I was running about like a lunatic, weaved through the crowd only to get panicked that they weren't there.

Right then I was stressed about not being able to snap the ride picture, not being able to find them, not having any money or my phone or just anything really. There was music playing and so many people going around, it was pretty overwhelming at that point. Too many things were going through my head and I didn't remember anyone's phone numbers so l thought maybe I could call my phone and hope they pick up (I knew my phone was on silent mode so the chances were slim). Or at least use instagram to contact them. So I went to ask someone to borrow their phone. I just wanna say by this point I was already losing it, maybe I was overreacting I don't know. I asked them, and they shook their hand at me like I was asking them for money or something. They didn't even look at me and just waved me away. Aw man that was so gut wrenchingly painful for some reason, the flood gates just opened as I apologised and walked away.

Defeated and tired and really embarrassed for crying in front of families and children, I just sat down near the ride and waited, maybe they would come back wondering where I was. Then I noticed that across from where I was, there was a staff entrance where they would come through from time to time, and so l mustered the courage and asked them if I could borrow their phones or anything. 1 rejection, 2 rejections, third time and a staff member finally listened to what I was saying and went back in to the staff entrance area, only to come back out and advise me to go to the park entrance. They probably couldn't do much since they were on the clock, and I'm sorry to the staff that advised me, but I was crying and wiping up my tears as I told her my situation. How awkward it must have been.

Anyways, dejected as I was, I felt I couldn't do much anymore so l went out of that area onto the main street and baam, here comes the friend that I passed my bag to. I was relieved, but angry and confused and all these emotions rushed over me that I couldn't say anything other than "where is my stuff? I just want my bag", as we walked to where the group were at. On the way over they just kept patting my back and saying sorry, but I couldn't accept it because by then it had already been 40 minutes since I stepped out of the gift shop (forgot to mention I had one of those action cameras with me so l looked at time stamps).

Apparently while they were waiting, they got hungry and went to a restaurant across the park. I'm just wondering why did no one question even though more than half an hour had gone by, or that no one had thought to check my bag for my phone or anything. They said they texted and called me to see no reply so wouldn't that be one of the first thing you'd do?

Reached the restaurant, saw them, they were looking the other way from where I was coming so l just grabbed my bag and booked it to the bathroom because I was sobbing so bad haha. They called me when I was in there, but I didn't want to pick up so l just spent some time thinking what the hell just happened and what I should do next. I saw the timing for the next fast pass ride so I decided I would just go to that since it was already paid for and I was already at the theme park, and probably won't come back for a while.

So l dry my tears and head to that ride. Scanned my pass, head in to queue up and then I got a message from them that said 'we're going to the next ride, come meet us there' or something alone that line. So what do I do? I stand to the side and wait for them to come. They arrived, and one of them tried to hug me and kept apologising on and on, but I guess my brain was just full anger mode so I just kept saying not to touch me. When I'm angry I just shut up and keep to myself, I knew if I spoke l'd say some pretty mean things that could permanently dent our friendship.

Did not let out a single peep on that rollercoaster Imao. By then I was just tired and hungry since I didn't sit down to eat so I just quietly followed the group. I did occasionally talk to some of them (person I gave my bag to didn't even look at me) and chatted, but just not as energetically as before.

I even gave up on another ride to help one of them find the specific gift store that sold a hat that we all got earlier except for them, and then they got FOMO and wanted to buy it.

Some other stressful things happened that had me running around the whole park (reached 30k steps that day). Rented a power bank, price charges per hour, lent it to that FOMOed guy, wanted to return it before the hour was up because it had no juice anyways, bad luck. Couldn't find an empty return terminal at 7 different locations in the park and another mall where the public trains connected to the main route to get home. Finally found one after all that running, and boy was I just dead at that point. Half of the group had already left for the train station, the hug guy and FOMO guy waited for me to find the return terminal, which I appreciate.

(Im closer to 3 of them, so the 'they' in this paragraph refers to those 3). Fast fast forward, it has been almost a week, they've gone radio silent toward me, but still chat in a groupchat. They don't invite me out anymore when we'd hangout almost everyday. I've texted in the groupchat only to be ignored. Yesterday, I tried to invite them to an event at a cafe that's in 2 days, only to be met with chat stickers that held no response and read messages.

Im in two groupchats that they are in too, they would text in one and I can see them replying to each other, and they ignored my messages in the other groupchat. Just now, they did reply to me, but said they had to study for tests the following week, when I know they were out today having lunch and going to cafes together with other people.

I know this seems like it's just a small matter, but to me they were my support pillar. I've been pretty lost and we all supported each other so this sudden loss of communication has been affecting me the whole week I can't even function right. I also know some of you that have read through everything will wonder why I can't just leave it, or find other sources of support or just forget about it all. I'm in a complicated situation that would probably take a 20 page essay to explain. I don't want to blame them outright, maybe I did something that screwed everything up, I don't know. But the weeks been a lay in bed and stare at the ceiling in the dark type of week. I know it's bad but I can't seem to get myself out of this. I don't want to lose them, but sometimes my ego just shits on me and I wonder but did I do anything wrong?

If you've read till the end, thank you haha. I didn't mean for it to get this long, probably forgot to mention other factors that would have made it longer haha. Some of my grammar is probably wrong too, so please excuse that.