This happened pre pandemic, but gosh do I need to tell someone 'cause I still feel like I'm the insane one - I (22F) was 17 at the time, and I met this girl (21F now) that had the same hobbie as mine through mutual friends, she lived in another country so ofc we never met in person. She was really pretty, a year younger than me, and we instantly became friends; she'd call me 'my love' and instead of texting like regular people lol we took pictures of our faces on instagram and write our texts over the pic (like snapchat but on instagram), and I was so whooped - let me also say, we are both bisexual!! this is not a matter of 'maybe she was straight', to this day she upholds that she's bisexual

She was lovely, really pretty, but she had a bit of a weird habit - she'd go in and out of social media for months, i'm talking being online for a week, and then going off line for three months (no, she wasn't doing it just to me, everyone had the same experience as me), still, we talked so much, about everything and anything, flirted a lot, but she said very early on our friendship that she wasn't comfortable with long distance relationships. Which, speaking of relationships, she had a nasty ex boyfreind who she told me was super bad to her, never physical but just putting her down cosntantly

Anyways, so one day, we had a call after a year of friendship, our first call, we were super awkward at first but honestly it's a fond memory, we flirted, and then the topic of relationships came around, I said something like "yeah I think I could date you honestly", and she was like "what?! why didn't you tell me before? I like you a lot" and I was like "you said you didn't like long distance!" and she said "no I didn't", anywyas we kept talking and calling that call 'our first date', by the end of the call, she said and I remember very clearly: "when I get back, we're going to talk seriously about this", the call ended, she went offline for a few months

Now, she came online a few times, posting on her story, but never messaged me which I found weird, I replied to two of her stories before stopping bc I didn't want to be pushy, and to my utter horror she posted a story a few days later, with a guy, y'all, she had gotten back with her ex boyfriend

To say I was hurt would be an understatement, when she started replying to my stories again I literally ghosted her, part of me wanted her to feel ignored like I was, so we never spoke again, didn't unfollow each other for months and I mourned for two years (I wish I was kidding, wlw situationships hurt), we never were anything more than friends who flirted, but she told me she liked me and said we'd talk about it later, isn't that leading on?

Long story short, after two years of me getting over it, she followed my finsta which I allowed, cause I needed closure, she replied to my story on my birthday as if nothing happened, and I ignored her, after my cousin (bless her heart, she let me cry about this girl for years and never complained) said I should probably text her to get my closure, I sent her a very lengthy message, explaining I knew it wasn't her fault but I felt hurt, said I didn't see a point in having a frienship bc there was too much one sided resentment on my behalf, and told her I wished her the best

She never replied, I gave her a week before blocking her, I got my peace, who knows if she even cared, but I recently told this story to a new friend and she was very hesitant to agree with me, saying maybe I was a bit too much, I get where she is coming from, but I was 17, liked this girl, and felt like I got lead on and tossed to the side, so anyways, just need some opinions, I'm over it now and accept that I did not handle it the best way, but still, it felt right in that time