OK for some context me and her are born a year apart at the time I was 15 and she was 16. She started dating a girl. Let’s call her hope and her and Hope got really close like within a couple months close she started ignoring me even though we adopted her because she had a bad family situation she barely talked to me and would be very rude when we did talk One day after school ended like end of the year she was up visiting with her mom and she started a fight in runway to live with her girlfriend. Hope she went no contact with us for about two weeks and then finally got a hold of us and explained the situation. Everything was fine. We still hung out even if it was just up there at her new house instead of down here the last two weeks of our friendship she became really dry, barely talking, and when she did, she was very short and rude. I got upset very easily by her and she made a joke about my friend, killing himself even after a couple months of it happening She knew a bunch of my sore spots and use them against me and it PMO I started venting to my older sister about how if I could. I wanted to beat hopes but even though I wouldn’t actually do it, I was just mad and expressing my feelings my sister went behind my back and told my cousin and her girlfriend this and they called me one night. They were cursing me out saying I was fake and screaming at me saying I wouldn’t do shit and that they would beat my ass if they got the chance or if they ever saw me again and I just blocked them. Hope mother got a hold of me and was cursing me out even though I was under age saying that she would beat my ass if she ever saw me and a bunch of other stuff I would rather not mention I stayed calm and composed and basically ignored her with a couple paragraphs recently I reached out and I tried to apologizing for my actions and she brought up my friend‘s death again tried making as a joke saying that I should kill myself too, but I still feel like this whole situation is my fault because my mom and my sister are making it seem like it. It’s my fault. Am I the asshole