My bf asked me to marry him tonight and broke up with me when I said it wasn't the right time.

My 27f boyfriend 44m asked me to marry him tonight for the second time. We've been together for 6 years. First time was approximately a year ago. Both times he was drunk and there was no ring, but I had told him before he could propose with a twisty tie and I wouldn't care. Last year when he asked we were sitting on our couch, listening to music and he out of the blue asked me to marry him. He went into a long speech about how much he loves me and how I'm the one. I was crying. I said yes and I was so happy. Then the next day, he took it back. Said he got ahead of himself and some things needed worked out before we could get married. I was heartbroken. But I stayed because it wasn't about being married for me. It was about being with him.

For context, neither one of us were previously interested in marriage. I changed my mind after falling in love with him. And had expressed this to him since we had both discussed in the beginning it wasn't something we were interested in. He was on the fence with the idea.

After being heartbroken by him taking his proposal back, I told him not to ever bring it up again unless he was absolutely serious. Fast forward to now, we've had a very rough 2 months and had a serious talk earlier this week about fixing our relationship and rebuilding trust. Tonight, he drunk proposed again. No long speech this time just asked me to marry him. I said I didn't think it was a good time for us to be getting married. He was silent for a little while before then telling me we were done. It doesnt make any sense to me because last year when he said it wasn't the right time, it was okay. And I've listened to him preach through the years about how marriage isn't a bandage to try to fix your relationship. You need to work on your relationship before getting married. Now it applies to us and it doesn't count??? I'm not allowed to say it isn't the right time but he is???

I would love to marry him in the future after working out our kinks. But doing it right now feels like forcing it and I don't think it would be enjoyable. I want to enjoy getting married to him. Enjoy being newlyweds. AITAH to say now wasn't the right time?